03 6 / 2012
When all else fail…go watch korean dramas!!! Im so happy with my kdramas ^^ #babawmoments (Taken with instagram)
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28 5 / 2012
I’m going away.
I don’t know if you noticed how im so quiet yesterday. Thing is, i have been thinking a lot lately if i’m going to finally tell you how i feel. And when i say “tell how i feel” it’s everything. No inhibitions. No considerations of somebody’s/anybody’s feelings. But then, I just couldn’t pull up the courage i thought i already have. It deserted me on the spot. Then you suddenly started talking about something. It caught me off guard. After what you said i became quieter and sadder than ever. I’m sorry if i was no fun at all last night. If i’m you, i would’ve complained. How dead the atmosphere was, me just nodding and agreeing to anything you said. It’s not me yesterday. Totally not me. Spacing out while you were there. What the hell happened to me? I don’t know.
So there. I don’t know if can still be with you without feeling sad. So i guess that would be the last time im going to see you. Well Im glad that im important to you and that you find time to see me. That you trust me with your most intimate secrets and that you find me strong and confident and different and unconventional and that you are so true to yourself when we are together. I’m also glad that while you are a very curious person, always trying to read people, you find me puzzling and unreadable. Makes me feel Bella huh! But all of these… These are nothing because you just see me as a friend. And while i really really like spending time with you, makes me happy when im with you, i just don’t think i can still do this. Because after the high there’s always the low. And it’s the lowest low i feel everytime i go home after meeting you.
I thought being friends with you is a better idea, since friends don’t break up. No expectations, no disappointments. You may not be always around 24/7 but when i text you and need you you’ll be there. But a friend once told me that guys don’t like that. Now im thinking if I am the one who is dumb and numb for not telling you i like you. Or You’re dumber and number than I am because you can’t feel that i care for you more than i care for any guys out there. You well know that im not like this To Just Any Other Guy. But how come you can’t tell. :(
Be good. Take care of yourself. Thank you for the good times. Thank you for letting me feel im a normal person after all and That im capable of feeling things.
